I used to hate them,
the raised white lines along my skin.
They proved that I have lost, failed, given in.
I used to hide them,
under black cloth with little visibility.
I felt scared, out of control, beyond safety.
Looking back now,
I can see them in a new light.
They prove I can survive, endure, fight.
Looking back now,
I know how beautiful I am within.
I feel empowered, strong, driven.
Here I am,
defying the pain that was all I knew.
I KNOW in my heart that you can too.
She's Nothing but a Campfire by gummibat, literature
Literature
She's Nothing but a Campfire
Your warmth draws me closer with each breathe I take,
as you flicker around me, all I know is at stake.
So inviting, you're smiling, and the flame starts to grow,
but something in my heart is telling me to go.
Closer and closer, the heat's rising fast,
this wonder, this thrill isn't meant to last.
The flame hits my skin as I pull back,
self control has always been something I lack.
You are always so safe from far away,
I wish more than anything that I could stay.
But you burn me, you burn me,
and you don't even see.
It will never work, my unattainable dream.
I am blinded.
The faces I hold close tell me their sweet words,
and I must push them away.
I can't believe them.
I, too, have a mirror
and I see a skewed reflection.
But seeing is believing,
so I am stuck here, in disbelief,
wishing I could see someone else,
wishing I could see what they see in me.
Every golden word that escapes their lips,
I meet with choked back silence.
I want it to be real.
I want to take myself in,
and smooth over the rough surfaces.
I need to be able to touch, and to accept.
I secretly know, I will never perfect it,
but the empty dream is filled with desire,
wanting to be better than my current state
Take it, and walk out of the store.
Don't pay, just walk.
Come on, just once.
You won't get caught.
Take it, and light it.
Don't panic, just breathe in.
Come on, just once.
It won't hurt you.
Take it, and slice across your skin.
Focus on the pain, be calm.
Come on, just once.
You will feel better.
Take it, and inject.
Feel the rush, smile.
Come on, just once.
You won't get hooked, I promise.
Take it, and thrust in.
Close your eyes, feel the body heat.
Come on, just once.
No worries, I'll be careful.
Take it, and throw it up.
Just watch, you will get thinner.
Come on, just once.
You do want to be skinny, right?
You said
She used to cry so much that her cheeks had permanent streaks. Kind of like a doll with paint dripping down her porcelain. So, so fucking fragile... that people were afraid to reach out to her. What if she broke on their watch? No one wants that kind of responsibility. So they left her there, alone. And watched her paint dry. She wasn't happy. She couldn't be happy.
The porcelain girl started to realize that no one gave a damn. She grew bitter. The soft parts of her that used to hurt were drizzled over with a new metal defense. Nothing, not a single blade could cut through. The metal was thick, and there was no longer any way of reaching her
I used to laugh as I lit the match,
Saying how I knew I was messed up.
I knew it was wrong,
But, I didn't even care.
I used to smile,
Taking off my clothes,
And knowing I was worthless,
And knowing it didn't matter to me.
I used to be silent,
When people told me I was great,
Told me they loved me,
And I didn't believe them.
I told everyone to shut up.
I told everyone I was going to change.
I told everyone whatever the fuck they wanted.
I told lies.
And suddenly,
The matches burn,
And the smoke
Has made it very hard to breathe.
And suddenly,
Going from girl to girl
Without caring at all
Hurts more than I could have ever
You know what you are?
You're heroin.
I scrape together everything I have,
And give it all to you,
With nothing in return
Except the best feeling in the world,
And then that low, empty feeling.
I got addicted after one use,
And all I can think about,
Everything I crave is you.
Day or night,
In my dreams, in my thoughts
Just you.
You don't care for me.
You spread around to whoever you please.
You do what you want,
And that is why you are so
Deadly.
I know you're an overdose waiting to happen,
BUT I can't stop,
Even if I wanted to.
Which I kind of do,
But I really don't at the same time.
I know you are b
You have the timing just right,
And you've picked the best background.
We were under a tree,
Spring has just awaken itself.
The air was soft,
almost like an angel had chosen to breathe life into all that was around.
It was all tranquil.
Everything was new, unstained.
You took the picture.
The portrait rests upon your dresser.
You've picked the best spot for it.
The sun's light floods in,
From half-closed shades.
The picture is illuminated, shining.
Summer has broken through the pale canvas of the previous season.
Passion is burning.
Everything is vibrant, full.
All we can do is smile.
The ink isn't as bright as before.
It
There is an oasis sprinkled among the sky,
and paved into every crack of this broken street.
There is real magic carved into the roots of these trees,
and ingrained in every blade of grass you walk upon.
The emptiness you feel is an illusion,
for all you could ever need to fill you
is right here at your disposal.
So step away from this screen.
Step out of these closed walls that surround you.
You are not imprisoned, so free yourself!
Let nothing stop you. Take charge.
I dare you to move.
I dare you to dream.
I dare you to discover.
I. Dare. You. To. LIVE!
What are you waiting for?
My heart isn't whole,
More like in pieces.
That doesn't make me some whore,
Struck with diseases.
It just means I'm indecisive,
That I can't pick one direction.
It all sounds so good,
My shady confession.
I don't know what I want,
So don't try and ask.
Picking angels from ashes
Is not a simple task.
I had what I wanted once,
She was such a beauty.
I was too misled to keep her,
I couldn't love her back as truly.
Now, I don't think I would know
If I found what I am looking for.
I pass each chance too quickly,
Walking away from open doors.
I'm just too
Moody,
Reckless,
Confused,
Senseless.
And as the pieces scatte
I used to hate them,
the raised white lines along my skin.
They proved that I have lost, failed, given in.
I used to hide them,
under black cloth with little visibility.
I felt scared, out of control, beyond safety.
Looking back now,
I can see them in a new light.
They prove I can survive, endure, fight.
Looking back now,
I know how beautiful I am within.
I feel empowered, strong, driven.
Here I am,
defying the pain that was all I knew.
I KNOW in my heart that you can too.
She's Nothing but a Campfire by gummibat, literature
Literature
She's Nothing but a Campfire
Your warmth draws me closer with each breathe I take,
as you flicker around me, all I know is at stake.
So inviting, you're smiling, and the flame starts to grow,
but something in my heart is telling me to go.
Closer and closer, the heat's rising fast,
this wonder, this thrill isn't meant to last.
The flame hits my skin as I pull back,
self control has always been something I lack.
You are always so safe from far away,
I wish more than anything that I could stay.
But you burn me, you burn me,
and you don't even see.
It will never work, my unattainable dream.
I am blinded.
The faces I hold close tell me their sweet words,
and I must push them away.
I can't believe them.
I, too, have a mirror
and I see a skewed reflection.
But seeing is believing,
so I am stuck here, in disbelief,
wishing I could see someone else,
wishing I could see what they see in me.
Every golden word that escapes their lips,
I meet with choked back silence.
I want it to be real.
I want to take myself in,
and smooth over the rough surfaces.
I need to be able to touch, and to accept.
I secretly know, I will never perfect it,
but the empty dream is filled with desire,
wanting to be better than my current state
Take it, and walk out of the store.
Don't pay, just walk.
Come on, just once.
You won't get caught.
Take it, and light it.
Don't panic, just breathe in.
Come on, just once.
It won't hurt you.
Take it, and slice across your skin.
Focus on the pain, be calm.
Come on, just once.
You will feel better.
Take it, and inject.
Feel the rush, smile.
Come on, just once.
You won't get hooked, I promise.
Take it, and thrust in.
Close your eyes, feel the body heat.
Come on, just once.
No worries, I'll be careful.
Take it, and throw it up.
Just watch, you will get thinner.
Come on, just once.
You do want to be skinny, right?
You said
She used to cry so much that her cheeks had permanent streaks. Kind of like a doll with paint dripping down her porcelain. So, so fucking fragile... that people were afraid to reach out to her. What if she broke on their watch? No one wants that kind of responsibility. So they left her there, alone. And watched her paint dry. She wasn't happy. She couldn't be happy.
The porcelain girl started to realize that no one gave a damn. She grew bitter. The soft parts of her that used to hurt were drizzled over with a new metal defense. Nothing, not a single blade could cut through. The metal was thick, and there was no longer any way of reaching her
I used to laugh as I lit the match,
Saying how I knew I was messed up.
I knew it was wrong,
But, I didn't even care.
I used to smile,
Taking off my clothes,
And knowing I was worthless,
And knowing it didn't matter to me.
I used to be silent,
When people told me I was great,
Told me they loved me,
And I didn't believe them.
I told everyone to shut up.
I told everyone I was going to change.
I told everyone whatever the fuck they wanted.
I told lies.
And suddenly,
The matches burn,
And the smoke
Has made it very hard to breathe.
And suddenly,
Going from girl to girl
Without caring at all
Hurts more than I could have ever
You know what you are?
You're heroin.
I scrape together everything I have,
And give it all to you,
With nothing in return
Except the best feeling in the world,
And then that low, empty feeling.
I got addicted after one use,
And all I can think about,
Everything I crave is you.
Day or night,
In my dreams, in my thoughts
Just you.
You don't care for me.
You spread around to whoever you please.
You do what you want,
And that is why you are so
Deadly.
I know you're an overdose waiting to happen,
BUT I can't stop,
Even if I wanted to.
Which I kind of do,
But I really don't at the same time.
I know you are b
You have the timing just right,
And you've picked the best background.
We were under a tree,
Spring has just awaken itself.
The air was soft,
almost like an angel had chosen to breathe life into all that was around.
It was all tranquil.
Everything was new, unstained.
You took the picture.
The portrait rests upon your dresser.
You've picked the best spot for it.
The sun's light floods in,
From half-closed shades.
The picture is illuminated, shining.
Summer has broken through the pale canvas of the previous season.
Passion is burning.
Everything is vibrant, full.
All we can do is smile.
The ink isn't as bright as before.
It
There is an oasis sprinkled among the sky,
and paved into every crack of this broken street.
There is real magic carved into the roots of these trees,
and ingrained in every blade of grass you walk upon.
The emptiness you feel is an illusion,
for all you could ever need to fill you
is right here at your disposal.
So step away from this screen.
Step out of these closed walls that surround you.
You are not imprisoned, so free yourself!
Let nothing stop you. Take charge.
I dare you to move.
I dare you to dream.
I dare you to discover.
I. Dare. You. To. LIVE!
What are you waiting for?
My heart isn't whole,
More like in pieces.
That doesn't make me some whore,
Struck with diseases.
It just means I'm indecisive,
That I can't pick one direction.
It all sounds so good,
My shady confession.
I don't know what I want,
So don't try and ask.
Picking angels from ashes
Is not a simple task.
I had what I wanted once,
She was such a beauty.
I was too misled to keep her,
I couldn't love her back as truly.
Now, I don't think I would know
If I found what I am looking for.
I pass each chance too quickly,
Walking away from open doors.
I'm just too
Moody,
Reckless,
Confused,
Senseless.
And as the pieces scatte
Your scars
are bright and shiny
like baby's teeth
newly cut and grown,
or Christmas toys
your mother hid
up in the attic
praying you would never touch.
I like their livid edges,
how they pucker
under my hands
like new zippers
begging to be left open,
and catch the light
that spills from my perfect world.
And you like
the jagged sounds
my sighs make,
the rush of warm air
that keeps you safe
and how your fragile heart beats
when you unbuckle your skin
and the world heals.
It started so many years ago.
A little problem that proceeded to grow,
How big it would get, no one could know.
But if they had, it could have helped so.
She grasped the blade, it touched her skin;
This is where the saga did begin.
She cut herself to remove her sin,
The evil poured out as the steel went in.
She soon realized that each cut brought release
It brought her harmony, brought her peace.
It was a welcome feeling, how could she cease?
The amount of cutting began to increase.
It was a vicious cycle of blood and pain
She'd cut one day, then try to abstain.
You can't understand, because it's hard to explain;
Bu
I'll just sit here,
And count my battle scars.
You know the ones
All over my arms.
I'll just pretend
That I don't care,
But silently wish,
You were still here.
I'll act whole
And stand strong,
Even when I hurt
More than the burning sun.
I won't look broken,
I won't be sad,
And I won't cry,
As long as your glad.
I'll just sit here,
And count my battle scars.
You know, the ones
All over my arms.
I called her last night to make sure you were okay.
I'm a great actress.
I understand why you did this.
I have to deal with it somehow.
What we had has been gone lately.
I don't think I can find it.
Its not about him.
I wish you didn't think that.
But I can't change your mind
because you dont like him
or trust him with me.
That's all i guess.
What are you addicted to?
On a dark desert highway cool wind in my hair
Warm smell of colitas rising up through the air
Up ahead in the distance I saw a shimmering light
My head grew heavy and my sight grew dimmer
I had to stop for the night
There she stood in the doorway
I heard the mission bell
And I was thinking to my
'This could be Heaven or this could be Hell'
Then she lit up a candle
and she showed me the way
There were voices down the corridor
I thought I heard them say...
Welcome to the Hotel California
Such a lovely place
Such a lovely face
Plenty of room at the Hotel California
Any time of year you can find it here